But anyway, I need to start thinking of the steps involved to getting to be where I want to be, in small, easier to attain and daily goals.
And thinking about which of these fantasies is really the one I want? I imagine different lives all the time, but what goal is best, while still being realistically attainable? And where do I want to end up? What kind of things/people do I want my happiness depending on? What kind of life do I want for myself?
These are really hard questions, and I don't know if I'll ever feel even keeled enough to answer any of them the same way twice.
I guess I just want everything. That's not a helpful thing at all.